Getting back to normal !!!!

Normal WTF is that? For me, normal the past 7 months has been illness, dying and death. I need to get some light into my life again.

I want to stop worrying and have fun. I feel as if I've aged 10 years in the last 2. I know I shouldn't complain, there are others far worse off than me, but sometimes you can't help it. Enough is enough though. I don't expect to stop grieving overnight, but I need to do something to lift my family and myself out of this depressing place.

Now that suddenly my brother and I are the oldest generation I feel as if I need to grow up or something. It's quite weird. I feel that I have to slough off this old me and re-invent myself. Quite how I'm going to do it I'm not sure, but I must do something!